I’ve been agonizing over this post for quite a few months. The more time that went by, the harder it became to start. And the harder that it was to start, the more time that I allowed to go by. And the more time that went by, the more I wasn’t sure about “where to start”, and . . . well you get the point!

If you’ve been on my list for a while, you’ve noticed that there has been a looooong stretch of “radio (er, blog) silence.”  And it’s not because things have been quiet on the home front. Quite the opposite really.  In a nutshell . . .

• We brought home our 12 year old (now 13) son from Jamaica last August and after the “honey moon” found ourselves dealing with, working through a whole lot more “stuff” (his and ours) than we had anticipated.
• I made a decision to not return t0 (and eventually resigned from) my elementary principal position in order to be home more and follow a new path that I felt God was calling me to. And while that all sounds really great and spiritual. It has been hard, confusing, uncomfortable, and faith-stretching!
• I’ve taken a few business courses to try and gain a better understanding of this online world. And have been working really hard to put all the pieces into place.
• I’m speaking regularly in faith-based, women empowerment, and education circles. And I have discovered that this is my total “sweet spot” for ministry! (And it’s also been hard, uncomfortable, and totally faith-stretching!)
• I had another, that would be my 4th, ankle surgery this summer. OUCH!
• And if you haven’t popped by in a while, come visit my website, you’ll see I’ve done some “upgrading” on my site and launched a few programs.

However, while I’ve had puuuh-lenty going on in my “real” home, I haven’t had a lot going on here, in my digi-home. So, I’m hitting the reset button. And I’m glad I am back ’cause I really do love it here.

Coming back, stepping up to the plate, getting back in the saddle (or whatever cute saying you have in your arsenal) is always hard. But eventually, we have to. And through the process we are humbled and humanized and healed.

We are humbled because there comes that moment of reconciling that we are not . . . wait for it . . . perfect! Perfect people don’t stumble, trip, fall, or lie down. They don’t get off schedule, veer off course, or make detours. But us real women do. And that’s ok because it is through the process of getting up and dusting ourselves off that we gain a little more strength and a little more courage and a little deeper knowledge about our resilience and bounce-back-ability and our humanness.

Yes. The “come backs” remind us that we are human. And when we share our resets publicly, we allow others to see that we’re just like them. It gives us a chance to make deeper connections, to stretch out our hands and lift another up. We have the opportunity to extend a greater amount of grace to ourselves and to receive it from others. All the guilt, worry, and doubt that we let swirl around in our heads, as we wondered what others might think, quickly dissipates as our sisters say “It’s ok. I’ve traveled unexpected paths, too.”

And in that process, that sharing of vulnerable times, we are healed. We are healed from the lie that some how we have to be perfect to be loved and accepted, we are healed from the lie that who we are is somehow intricately connected to what we do, and we are healed from the lie that we’re the only one who’s ever needed to hit the “reset” button. And as we are healed, we are set free to be our authentic, flawed, valuable, gifted, and wonderfully made selves.

So, I’m back.  A little (ego) bruised, but not broken and I look forward to reconnecting with you all here on a more regular basis. Thank you for allowing me into your inbox.

I’d love to hear from you. Have you ever had to make a comeback? Has life caused you to have to hit a reset button? What was the process like? What did you learn?